What's the NOT to a Bikini Model?
I never thought I'd be one - I never thought I was pretty enough or had the good body to - thought that all those straight up and down girls with the naturally insane physiques would be the ones to strut their stuff on a stage in front of everyone - thousands…
You know what - anyone can DO ANYTHING.
Yep, you. Why? Because I did.
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| INBA West Coast Super Show August 2014 - Australian Health & Fitness Expo |
Yeah I wasn't big, no I haven't lost 50kgs.. But fuck have I gained muscle, posture, core strength, energy, motivation, happiness, a new lease on life, SO many things that I didn't think moving my body and getting fit would bring…
It doesn’t
matter what you do, it’s why you do it.
How you do
one thing is how you do everything.
I LOVE both
of these quotes, and I am constantly working on myself to become the best
version to do be able to put 100% of my energy and effort into living both of
them…
Constantly
trying to start and finish everything I do with consistency and smashing goals
rather than setting them half heartedly and then getting half way and not
finishing them – not achieving but back out because that’s ok – cus you can be
mediocre and be safe and chill out in the back line babes…
Well No,
that’s not what I want, and not for me – but for others. So I will do
everything I can in my power, which is everything, to excel personally.
Hopefully this will inspire something somewhere in someone.
Some change.
This last
journey to stage for the West Coast Super Show has been another stratospheric
leap into a new level of my shiz in my heart and shiz in between my ears
development.
YEP –
Massive leaps and bounds.
I’ve
overcome fear.
Began to
love myself more.
Kicked Ego’s
ass as much as I can.
Showed up in
life as much as possible – for myself, my friends and the universe.
Put more
love back into my family and my relationship with my Mumma bear.
Set some
bloody scary goals.
Pushed my
body to limits and smashed boundaries.
Given love
back to some bad ass bullies who thought they could bring me down.
Turned on my
inner goddess.
Become ok
with being alone and totally happy single – actually this has been for a little
while now, but I’m loving life a wholeeeee lot more now without someone to
worry about.
Enjoyed the
WHOLE experience on Saturday at the Fitness Expo.
Recognised
when I was starting to be a Bitch and stop that shit.
The list
goes on – it’s all been interesting and I’ve learnt to bend way beyond the word
frustrating and everything is not Fascinating and Nerves are no longer – as
those feelings become Excitement.
The way you
apply yourself in building a body is very similar in the way you apply yourself
in life – I have made some poor choices in my lifetime, and always been a last
minute kind of gal – rushing when the push came to shove because I wanted to
have a good time during the journey early on in the piece, THUS making it a
hard slog out in the end to the finish line… WHATever that may have been at the
time – assignment at uni, project at work, anything with a deadline…
And a lot of
the time I then left it way too late and failed, and was ok with that – and got
used to the feeling of failure, so that I could just have a good time, and not
miss out on what I thought was the social ideals and life of hanging around and
being ‘cool’, fitting in with the joes and hoes like the next dramatic ego
struck person that is walking dead along the street and talking nothing at the
bar – emptiness. Just spoon fulls of air that float off the tongue and out the
other side of someone’s disinterested ear.
This started
to creep into my comp prep – I was putting off starting sticking to the diet to
the next day, the next day, the next day – thinking at the star of yep amazing,
I can finish this with strong regards, my body will be absolutely fine if I
have this piece of cake or 3 on my birthday – because it’s ok right, everone’s
saying it is, and I wouldn’t be normal if I didn’t, Right?
What the
FUCK is normal.
Don’t try
and answer that question, there is nothing to answer it with – the average is
no longer, you make your own world.
Period.
So then when
you come to your body – you can’t lie and rush the last little piece in,
there’s no bullshitting your way out of this deal.
Lucky I can
dedicate and put in hard work when I really want something, or when I know I am
going to prove a point… Or when I’m scared, fear is a great motivator.. I know,
I used to use it a lot on myself. Instead of
loving and stepping into my real power.
SO I put in
the hard work in the last week of comp prep and my body looked bangin – I’m not
going to lie, it does. I’m not being egotistical, I’m just being honest.
But bangin
doesn’t mean comp day lean.
BUT I learnt
that lesson – and I have learnt and gotten the head and mind out of the way to step up
on that stage not shakey and knowing how to shine in my own zone..
SO breaking
the bad habit of wanting to fail, or wanting to win but being ok with a fail, and thus becoming
consistent. Has come to this moment now – and I’m SO proud to be able to say that I am breaking
that habit. I’m loving
myself and bottling that energy so I don’t get all too excited, go great guns
for one day and then cave to pressure to eat or drink, or talk or walk, or say
or do or dance to a tune, a song that isn’t mine and isn’t congruent with my
goals.
The journey
is definitely what it’s all about – the trophy is but a piece of glory and
piece of metal (if that). The pride
and love you will gain within yourself is by far more important.
Love it.
Love yourself and Love how far you will come by testing yourself to reach that
scary ass goal.
I am proud
to say that I have over-come so many fears, am finally committed and
consistent, and not self sabotaging because I secretly want myself to fail and
drop out of anything I start.
I am in constant
joy, training with ease, and not much either – just consistently.
Consistently.
The little
things.
Done over
and over – make greatness.
Not a flash
of brilliance for the glory train.
DO IT WITH SOMEONE - THIS woman, she's the biggest reason I have kept going, she is so so beautiful to the core and puts up with my crap always, and loves me like a sister always - so if your doing something in life then make sure you do it in a team…
Always with Love - seriously love you, from me and the universe.
Dee
