Whats to a Bikini Model

What's the NOT to a Bikini Model? 

I never thought I'd be one - I never thought I was pretty enough or had the good body to - thought that all those straight up and down girls with the naturally insane physiques would be the ones to strut their stuff on a stage in front of everyone - thousands… 

You know what - anyone can DO ANYTHING. 
Yep, you. Why? Because I did. 

INBA West Coast Super Show August 2014 - Australian Health & Fitness Expo

THAT's not what I used to look like….

Yeah I wasn't big, no I haven't lost 50kgs.. But fuck have I gained muscle, posture, core strength, energy, motivation, happiness, a new lease on life, SO many things that I didn't think moving my body and getting fit would bring…

It doesn’t matter what you do, it’s why you do it.

How you do one thing is how you do everything.

I LOVE both of these quotes, and I am constantly working on myself to become the best version to do be able to put 100% of my energy and effort into living both of them…

Constantly trying to start and finish everything I do with consistency and smashing goals rather than setting them half heartedly and then getting half way and not finishing them – not achieving but back out because that’s ok – cus you can be mediocre and be safe and chill out in the back line babes…

Well No, that’s not what I want, and not for me – but for others. So I will do everything I can in my power, which is everything, to excel personally. Hopefully this will inspire something somewhere in someone.

Some change.

This last journey to stage for the West Coast Super Show has been another stratospheric leap into a new level of my shiz in my heart and shiz in between my ears development.

YEP – Massive leaps and bounds.

I’ve overcome fear.

Began to love myself more.

Kicked Ego’s ass as much as I can.

Showed up in life as much as possible – for myself, my friends and the universe.

Put more love back into my family and my relationship with my Mumma bear.

Set some bloody scary goals.

Pushed my body to limits and smashed boundaries.

Given love back to some bad ass bullies who thought they could bring me down.

Turned on my inner goddess.

Become ok with being alone and totally happy single – actually this has been for a little while now, but I’m loving life a wholeeeee lot more now without someone to worry about.

Enjoyed the WHOLE experience on Saturday at the Fitness Expo.

Recognised when I was starting to be a Bitch and stop that shit.

The list goes on – it’s all been interesting and I’ve learnt to bend way beyond the word frustrating and everything is not Fascinating and Nerves are no longer – as those feelings become Excitement.

The way you apply yourself in building a body is very similar in the way you apply yourself in life – I have made some poor choices in my lifetime, and always been a last minute kind of gal – rushing when the push came to shove because I wanted to have a good time during the journey early on in the piece, THUS making it a hard slog out in the end to the finish line… WHATever that may have been at the time – assignment at uni, project at work, anything with a deadline…

And a lot of the time I then left it way too late and failed, and was ok with that – and got used to the feeling of failure, so that I could just have a good time, and not miss out on what I thought was the social ideals and life of hanging around and being ‘cool’, fitting in with the joes and hoes like the next dramatic ego struck person that is walking dead along the street and talking nothing at the bar – emptiness. Just spoon fulls of air that float off the tongue and out the other side of someone’s disinterested ear.

This started to creep into my comp prep – I was putting off starting sticking to the diet to the next day, the next day, the next day – thinking at the star of yep amazing, I can finish this with strong regards, my body will be absolutely fine if I have this piece of cake or 3 on my birthday – because it’s ok right, everone’s saying it is, and I wouldn’t be normal if I didn’t, Right?

What the FUCK is normal.

Don’t try and answer that question, there is nothing to answer it with – the average is no longer, you make your own world.

Period.

So then when you come to your body – you can’t lie and rush the last little piece in, there’s no bullshitting your way out of this deal.

Lucky I can dedicate and put in hard work when I really want something, or when I know I am going to prove a point… Or when I’m scared, fear is a great motivator.. I know, I used to use it a lot on myself. Instead of loving and stepping into my real power.

SO I put in the hard work in the last week of comp prep and my body looked bangin – I’m not going to lie, it does. I’m not being egotistical, I’m just being honest.

But bangin doesn’t mean comp day lean.

BUT I learnt that lesson – and I have learnt and gotten the head and mind out of the way to step up on that stage not shakey and knowing how to shine in my own zone..

SO breaking the bad habit of wanting to fail, or wanting to  win but being ok with a fail, and thus becoming consistent. Has come to this moment now – and I’m SO proud to be able to say that I am breaking that habit. I’m loving myself and bottling that energy so I don’t get all too excited, go great guns for one day and then cave to pressure to eat or drink, or talk or walk, or say or do or dance to a tune, a song that isn’t mine and isn’t congruent with my goals.

The journey is definitely what it’s all about – the trophy is but a piece of glory and piece of metal (if that). The pride and love you will gain within yourself is by far more important.

Love it. Love yourself and Love how far you will come by testing yourself to reach that scary ass goal.

I am proud to say that I have over-come so many fears, am finally committed and consistent, and not self sabotaging because I secretly want myself to fail and drop out of anything I start.

I am in constant joy, training with ease, and not much either – just consistently.

Consistently.

The little things.

Done over and over – make greatness.

Not a flash of brilliance for the glory train.

DO IT WITH SOMEONE - THIS woman, she's the biggest reason I have kept going, she is so so beautiful to the core and puts up with my crap always, and loves me like a sister always - so if your doing something in life then make sure you do it in a team… 

Always with Love - seriously love you, from me and the universe. 

Dee