Time

What's important to you in life?

I've been brought an awesome analogy from someone I know who told me he needs more time, wants more time and the only important thing or priority over everything else should be time. Success for him is now defined as the time spent with loved ones making memories and creating happiness with love and laughs.

What's important in my life? Time? Success? What's Success?

I hear this. I hear the words, I wish I could respond or have someone to hear me….I see the beauty in the ocean on my walk today and I wish I had someone here to share it with… I’ve made my way along this beauty that is Darwin's Mindil Beach and Cullen Bay and all its natural wonders, walked straight into the sounds of the Mindil Beach Markets that are now buzzing behind me as I sit on the beach edge, sun beating down bathing my body in goodness and I am lonely. I am loved, but I am alone, I am special but I’m blending with the crowds. Why?...

Trapped is a great word and there’s always a way to escape, being trapped never really depicts the real situation – you would have always put yourself in that position - saying your trapped is not the same as putting a glass over a spider and saying its trapped, the metaphorical conversion is flawed, the meaning is lost. And you are the only person who will be able to get yourself out. 

I thought I hated my last project I was posted to, but thought that the company I worked for was amazing, and leaving to chase “dreams” in another city with a new promotion and a new salary package would create the happiness and passion within my soul to drive me to be at peace, to be content. Drive me to enjoy the career path, progress as normally, loose sarcasm for the everyday and be happy standing where I’m standing. I have the most amazing life right now – aesthetically - great job, great money, great apartment, ‘looked after’ by my company, spending time with family and friends on my week off, people who love me, and an amazing wardrobe (this will never falter haha) I’m sure some people would think this is great too, my parents from a generation past think so……….I THOUGHT so too.

I have all this BUT I am not happy, I haven’t found what I desire, what I crave. I haven't defined or discovered the spark inside. I haven’t created my perfect day in my head yet let alone trying to make one materialise. So here I am discovering once again I’m not happy, that I've got to start finding out what my desires are or I'll always be mediocre………When Will I Ever Finish something. Or is that even necessary? Can I keep on going finishing nothing but experiencing everything and gain success.

 – WHAT EVEN IS SUCCESS

I can only start and hope that I'll figure it out - I am going to ask myself these two questions every day 1. What’s important to me and 2. What is success to me? Hopefully this will lead to some sort of goals. Goals I can write and picture every day, so I can slowly back of this edge of hell. 

Thank you to a couple of amazing souls in my life that know who they are and that they have contributed to this thought process today whilst I’m sitting on the beach….Now I’m thinking about you and all the amazing times! I know you are both realising the most important things in your life every day.

Mindil Beach - Darwin, NT

Conversations are priceless, laughs are worth millions and moments that are remembered for a lifetime should be kept in the pool room next to the most prized possession you have.

Love Dee