Whats to a Bikini Model

What's the NOT to a Bikini Model? 

I never thought I'd be one - I never thought I was pretty enough or had the good body to - thought that all those straight up and down girls with the naturally insane physiques would be the ones to strut their stuff on a stage in front of everyone - thousands… 

You know what - anyone can DO ANYTHING. 
Yep, you. Why? Because I did. 

INBA West Coast Super Show August 2014 - Australian Health & Fitness Expo

THAT's not what I used to look like….

Yeah I wasn't big, no I haven't lost 50kgs.. But fuck have I gained muscle, posture, core strength, energy, motivation, happiness, a new lease on life, SO many things that I didn't think moving my body and getting fit would bring…

It doesn’t matter what you do, it’s why you do it.

How you do one thing is how you do everything.

I LOVE both of these quotes, and I am constantly working on myself to become the best version to do be able to put 100% of my energy and effort into living both of them…

Constantly trying to start and finish everything I do with consistency and smashing goals rather than setting them half heartedly and then getting half way and not finishing them – not achieving but back out because that’s ok – cus you can be mediocre and be safe and chill out in the back line babes…

Well No, that’s not what I want, and not for me – but for others. So I will do everything I can in my power, which is everything, to excel personally. Hopefully this will inspire something somewhere in someone.

Some change.

This last journey to stage for the West Coast Super Show has been another stratospheric leap into a new level of my shiz in my heart and shiz in between my ears development.

YEP – Massive leaps and bounds.

I’ve overcome fear.

Began to love myself more.

Kicked Ego’s ass as much as I can.

Showed up in life as much as possible – for myself, my friends and the universe.

Put more love back into my family and my relationship with my Mumma bear.

Set some bloody scary goals.

Pushed my body to limits and smashed boundaries.

Given love back to some bad ass bullies who thought they could bring me down.

Turned on my inner goddess.

Become ok with being alone and totally happy single – actually this has been for a little while now, but I’m loving life a wholeeeee lot more now without someone to worry about.

Enjoyed the WHOLE experience on Saturday at the Fitness Expo.

Recognised when I was starting to be a Bitch and stop that shit.

The list goes on – it’s all been interesting and I’ve learnt to bend way beyond the word frustrating and everything is not Fascinating and Nerves are no longer – as those feelings become Excitement.

The way you apply yourself in building a body is very similar in the way you apply yourself in life – I have made some poor choices in my lifetime, and always been a last minute kind of gal – rushing when the push came to shove because I wanted to have a good time during the journey early on in the piece, THUS making it a hard slog out in the end to the finish line… WHATever that may have been at the time – assignment at uni, project at work, anything with a deadline…

And a lot of the time I then left it way too late and failed, and was ok with that – and got used to the feeling of failure, so that I could just have a good time, and not miss out on what I thought was the social ideals and life of hanging around and being ‘cool’, fitting in with the joes and hoes like the next dramatic ego struck person that is walking dead along the street and talking nothing at the bar – emptiness. Just spoon fulls of air that float off the tongue and out the other side of someone’s disinterested ear.

This started to creep into my comp prep – I was putting off starting sticking to the diet to the next day, the next day, the next day – thinking at the star of yep amazing, I can finish this with strong regards, my body will be absolutely fine if I have this piece of cake or 3 on my birthday – because it’s ok right, everone’s saying it is, and I wouldn’t be normal if I didn’t, Right?

What the FUCK is normal.

Don’t try and answer that question, there is nothing to answer it with – the average is no longer, you make your own world.

Period.

So then when you come to your body – you can’t lie and rush the last little piece in, there’s no bullshitting your way out of this deal.

Lucky I can dedicate and put in hard work when I really want something, or when I know I am going to prove a point… Or when I’m scared, fear is a great motivator.. I know, I used to use it a lot on myself. Instead of loving and stepping into my real power.

SO I put in the hard work in the last week of comp prep and my body looked bangin – I’m not going to lie, it does. I’m not being egotistical, I’m just being honest.

But bangin doesn’t mean comp day lean.

BUT I learnt that lesson – and I have learnt and gotten the head and mind out of the way to step up on that stage not shakey and knowing how to shine in my own zone..

SO breaking the bad habit of wanting to fail, or wanting to  win but being ok with a fail, and thus becoming consistent. Has come to this moment now – and I’m SO proud to be able to say that I am breaking that habit. I’m loving myself and bottling that energy so I don’t get all too excited, go great guns for one day and then cave to pressure to eat or drink, or talk or walk, or say or do or dance to a tune, a song that isn’t mine and isn’t congruent with my goals.

The journey is definitely what it’s all about – the trophy is but a piece of glory and piece of metal (if that). The pride and love you will gain within yourself is by far more important.

Love it. Love yourself and Love how far you will come by testing yourself to reach that scary ass goal.

I am proud to say that I have over-come so many fears, am finally committed and consistent, and not self sabotaging because I secretly want myself to fail and drop out of anything I start.

I am in constant joy, training with ease, and not much either – just consistently.

Consistently.

The little things.

Done over and over – make greatness.

Not a flash of brilliance for the glory train.

DO IT WITH SOMEONE - THIS woman, she's the biggest reason I have kept going, she is so so beautiful to the core and puts up with my crap always, and loves me like a sister always - so if your doing something in life then make sure you do it in a team… 

Always with Love - seriously love you, from me and the universe. 

Dee

Inspired Life. Live it NOW

Living an Inspired Life and Having an awesome EPIC AS SHIT DAY

Self explanatory with my total soul sister and little training partner in crime

This might seem like a Big ol load of bullshit, but to some of you who can relate then I hope you can take something away from this, from my ramblings and emotive writing that is my life and the stuff (the beautiful stuff) that fills it….

Firstly – thank you for stopping by, this little page has had ZERO love recently, and that’s totally my fault – but not because I’ve lost inspiration but because far from it, I’ve been living new heights of inspiration and personal/business growth every single day of this fat, juicy delicious year TwoOFourteen.

Today for the first time since I left a party lifestyle behind and found another better (for me) healthy way to live, with a good nutritional program and training and positive environment - I actually got up early, had a jam packed day, did every single event and action throughout the day with energy, positivity, total presence and didn’t once feel ‘flat’, stop and slow down, have a nap, feel the need to curl up in a ball or have the feeling of ‘what do I do next?’, am I going in the right path?

This blog hasn’t captured my journey of happiness and rainbows over the last 6 months – but Facebook and other social media, my mates etc etc have.. AND it’s been something else. Wow has it been something else. And so the above paragraph stating that TODAY is the first day of this may seem false, but it’s true.

You can have EPIC days, you can have totally fun days, full of love, friends, happiness, activities, beautiful moments and be in total flow with interruptions that may not be congruent with what you think should be AWESOME.

Who knows what was stopping me from reaching total amazing love and flow all the time? I think it could have a little bit to do with the naughty girl habits I adopted over the first 4 years of my twenties, after a rebellious, lost late teens – losing my way at Uni not knowing what I wanted to do with life, just that it had better be epic and impactful.

So tonight the realisation that life is always ok and we make up the story in our head hits home 100% with a CAPITAL Exclamation mark. And those moments of negativity or being STUCK are dimished perfectly – today was perfect, I lasted and pulled out his end insanely happy, knowing I’m in the right place, right time, right company, right friends, doing the right business.

It’s taken Me a LOT to get here but – and now I’m so freaking excited to embark on the next chapter with a new mindset and continuously be working on that mindset, myself, my team, my company and the world we live in…

My first beautiful little musing that I want to share is how to inspire, yourself. No one else, just yourself. Because living here and now is only a short part of your souls journey (woo woo talk may be prevalent in this blog, you’ve been warned) and as a mere mortal we can find inspo everywhere and anywhere, it’s humans and society that have edged inspo out…

BUT I see a trend, more and more people are realising that they want more inspo -  more positivity, more love. Less EGO.

BUT What do you do when your lacking Inspiration?

Not everyone has the luxury to wait, or meditate or walk along the beach to allow inspiration to float across our peripheral.

Yes – there is someone living an ‘inspired life’ in-sperato.

And that once your calling is found you will never go back to the way you used to be – always lusting and working as hard and as hard as you can to grasp that which has inspired you.

Living and aligning with exactly that which inspires you

As I’ve said above I have recently been on some what of a massive and hugely transformational journey of self development, in all kinds a ways - physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. Holy shit has much come to my mind – awakening my sense and ability to drive myself. To become self-driven and find what that key is inside of me and to un-lock it. (it gets weak at some points, don’t worry – but I am getting stronger and stronger every day at controlling that key and switching it back on when needed, pulling myself out of a slump or a bad moment is becoming quicker, and its that progress that I focus on)

Dr Wayne Dyer (you'll notice a theme in tonights quotes), Eckhart Tolle, Louise Hay – there have been some massive inspirations to this, experiences combined with teachings, people and hardship, love and guidance. From sometimes the most unlikely places (lets be honest they’re all from the most unlikely places).. But its those little unlikely places that I have found the most inspiration. When my mind was just. My mind.

SO here are some lessons I’ve learnt about keeping that beautiful old inspo up and your happiness level on break the Richter scale 10 (don’t blame me if this doesn’t work for your hot ass, it helps me)

• -       Surround yourself with positive people (if you have shit people in your life then maybe you need to reassess their worth)
• -       Smile (all the time, to strangers, at a baby, to the dog, and most importantly to yourself when you look in the mirror first thing in the morning – laugh your bloody head off actually)
• -       That leads me to LAUGHING (like I mean big fucking chuckles, belly laughs, giggles, squeals, snorts, free as a bird whatever you do and want)
• -       Daily Affirmations, positive ones about good shit you will have in your life  (I could do a whole Blog piece on this and in fact I think I will – NEXT week so stay tuned.,,…… in the mean time google Louise Hay, I dare you)
• -       Read Books (educational ones, not hot ass fiction, but those that will help you – yes ‘self help’ ones, don’t be scared, no ones judging but you silly)
• -       Listen to podcasts (might do a Post on this too, start with YouTube if you cbf)
• -       Listen to songs that make your heart sing (and your mouth/voicebox or wherever sound comes from)
• -       Write (in whatever forum you want really, start in your journal maybe, because there might be negs Nancy’s out there that will bring you down if you post your true heart home-gurl love on social media straight up – and if you were like me a year ago then you’ll give a shit about what they say and let them bring you down or affect your mood cus you think that their opinion counts, but babe it don’t, it sure as hell DON’T. ((Yeah like that English there)))
• -       Smell flowers and roses and freshly cut grass and ANTYHING that fills your heart with joy (find joy)
• -       Go to the beach (walk for as long as you want, swim, nudie dip)
• -       Meditate (sit in the park on your lunch break and look at a leaf, stare at it hard and enjoy its beauty. See the texture the green and brown flecks, the smoothness the spine and little veins that pop from it, enjoy being in that exact moment and focus on nothing else but the leaf, let your thoughts wander only to the leaf and that moment and let everything else melt away. This doesn’t sound like meditation you say? Oh it is babe town)
• -       Look at yourself in the mirror and repeat “I love myself, I am beautiful and I am strong, I am living my most amazing, abundant life possible”
• -       FILL your day, your cup, your week, every single second with purpose… THIS can mean something as little as stepping or singing or watching on purpose – when you start to pay attention and lead your life with purpose then the universe takes care of the rest. And Vamo dreams become reality.

Your thinking right about now – is this woman on happy juice? Haha – no, I’m just happy… Look back, read above. Common Theme:

Focus on the little things.

Every day, Every hour, Every Minute, Every Second.

And by the time you have a chance to stop and 

look back you realise that you’ve had a freaking amazing day, week, month, year..

SEE?

REALLY?

You know all that token jargon about happiness being the journey not the destination 

(or have I got it the wrong way around?) 

aanayhoo – it’s RIGHT.

Take note, listen to the beat of every ‘little moment’ Because they amount to the bigger happy ones.

Find the happiness, positivity and inspiration in every little thing you do. Get up in the morning Write them down. Then Eat. Sleep. And Repeat.

Abracadabra inspo-alabra…

Happy Totally Sexy Tuesday my lovers.

Happy 1^st of July and the start of a new beginning, a Dry July?  and a new way of thinking…

It is for me – and it can be for you too.

I love chatting and I love helping.. If you want to chat and want inspo or help with how, then don’t be shy cus I’m totally nice (on Wednesdays and Thursdays)

Love and Kisses and All things Happiness.

D

Freshly Cut Grass

You know what I like?

I like the smell of freshly cut grass in your backyard on a summers afternoon when its really, really hot and then the sprinkler goes on as the sun is setting and Mum and Dad sit down and the family’s there and you all surrounded by laughter and love and the best freaking smell in the world… Man I wish I could bottle that, the moment, the essence, the laughs, the care-free afternoons of whatever makes YOU happy… When we were kids… and things weren’t so complicated. Complicated by all the grown ups stuff of now.

Where did society go wrong? When did things become so freaking complicated? When did those nasty people in the world with frowns on their faces become the norm, when did our Grandfather’s manners die?

Sometimes it takes having some prick of society to really smack you in the face to wake you up and see that something’s diminishing…. Manners. Smiles. Love. Camaraderie. Hope. Safety. Service. Authenticity. Passion. Compassion. Loyalty. Dedication. Commitment. Respect. Willpower. Professionalism. Energy. Happiness. LIFE

That’s what I like.

No. LOVE