Time

What's important to you in life?

I've been brought an awesome analogy from someone I know who told me he needs more time, wants more time and the only important thing or priority over everything else should be time. Success for him is now defined as the time spent with loved ones making memories and creating happiness with love and laughs.

What's important in my life? Time? Success? What's Success?

I hear this. I hear the words, I wish I could respond or have someone to hear me….I see the beauty in the ocean on my walk today and I wish I had someone here to share it with… I’ve made my way along this beauty that is Darwin's Mindil Beach and Cullen Bay and all its natural wonders, walked straight into the sounds of the Mindil Beach Markets that are now buzzing behind me as I sit on the beach edge, sun beating down bathing my body in goodness and I am lonely. I am loved, but I am alone, I am special but I’m blending with the crowds. Why?...

Trapped is a great word and there’s always a way to escape, being trapped never really depicts the real situation – you would have always put yourself in that position - saying your trapped is not the same as putting a glass over a spider and saying its trapped, the metaphorical conversion is flawed, the meaning is lost. And you are the only person who will be able to get yourself out. 

I thought I hated my last project I was posted to, but thought that the company I worked for was amazing, and leaving to chase “dreams” in another city with a new promotion and a new salary package would create the happiness and passion within my soul to drive me to be at peace, to be content. Drive me to enjoy the career path, progress as normally, loose sarcasm for the everyday and be happy standing where I’m standing. I have the most amazing life right now – aesthetically - great job, great money, great apartment, ‘looked after’ by my company, spending time with family and friends on my week off, people who love me, and an amazing wardrobe (this will never falter haha) I’m sure some people would think this is great too, my parents from a generation past think so……….I THOUGHT so too.

I have all this BUT I am not happy, I haven’t found what I desire, what I crave. I haven't defined or discovered the spark inside. I haven’t created my perfect day in my head yet let alone trying to make one materialise. So here I am discovering once again I’m not happy, that I've got to start finding out what my desires are or I'll always be mediocre………When Will I Ever Finish something. Or is that even necessary? Can I keep on going finishing nothing but experiencing everything and gain success.

 – WHAT EVEN IS SUCCESS

I can only start and hope that I'll figure it out - I am going to ask myself these two questions every day 1. What’s important to me and 2. What is success to me? Hopefully this will lead to some sort of goals. Goals I can write and picture every day, so I can slowly back of this edge of hell. 

Thank you to a couple of amazing souls in my life that know who they are and that they have contributed to this thought process today whilst I’m sitting on the beach….Now I’m thinking about you and all the amazing times! I know you are both realising the most important things in your life every day.

Mindil Beach - Darwin, NT

Conversations are priceless, laughs are worth millions and moments that are remembered for a lifetime should be kept in the pool room next to the most prized possession you have.

Love Dee

Strong is the New Skinny

The Strength to have what I Desire

It's strange how you learn to be strong, how some people are just born strong, some are forced to be strong, some are encouraged and coached.

What's strength? Sometimes people say i'm strong willed or I'm assertive in my approach at work - taking control in situations.Little do they know, I'm a scared little girl. It's ok to be a scared little girl, I have come to accept this and stop pretending to be a big girl who knows what she's doing, putting up a facade to make people think I'm OK, when sometime I'm plainly just NOT.

STOP ADMIT ACT

stop being afraid of not being strong, admit you want help/something different and act on your feelings act on your desire....

What if Money Was No Object. What would you do. A short lecture by Alan Watts....

It's amazing, I get sad and happy all at the same time when I ask myself "What do I desire?"
Because, I don't have the strength to do what I desire. Thank you to the beautiful soul who gave me this link, and is telling me to quit my job right now to follow what I desire, you make me sad and happy all the same time to. Happy your in my life and sad because your not in my life.

Love Dee xx

It's OK to be Selfish

I was about to have a shower and pass out after a 14 hour day….on repeat now all week – nothing new, and the pit of emotion in my stomach gave me a little energy to say ‘fuck it, I’m going to write – I’m going to quickly put a post up’…. It takes no energy at all when you enjoy it so much you don’t realise your doing it. Whatever “It” is doesn’t matter.

I am having many inner battles and emotional struggles right now – I’m sure at some points so does everyone, work, personal, emotional, spiritual. So I’ll pick one from the air and crap on about it for a few minutes to relieve some of the stress of the day, release in words, probably more health than the cigarette I just lit up. 

But I don’t give a fuck tonight – I just don’t give a fuck.

You won’t see me for much longer living at your beck and call, falling for over myself on your every whim, or going out of my way to make it ‘alright’.

I’m doing it for me, I’m standing up for myself and I’m singing a song of strength (yuck too many s’s in that right there). And right now that means staying up 30 minutes later to do something for me. God forbid, I be selfish – everyone is, you have to be to survive. Everyone loves themselves, if they didn’t they would die LITERALLY. To love your self is simply not to be a cockhead or a ‘look at me look at me’ its to feed your body food and water it nutrition and let it breathe clean air.

Take the above guys and gals however you want – apply it to any situation you feel. Because whether in love, family, work or friendship there always needs to be a bit of SelfIshNess, without the relationship/s wouldn’t be healthy.

Go to sleep tonight wanting more for yourself and wake up having already given more than you realise, without any effort.

Night Night…

She is one hell of a lady

Love Dee xx

The Time is NOW

Welcome
To
powerful.eclectic.dreams

Almost a year ago to the day I sat in my lounge room on a Monday night just before going on an amazing whirlwind European holiday with my beautiful soul sister and her now fiancé to write the below "blog post". At the time I wanted to escape from my professional job to write, I wanted to blog, I wanted to continue my love of fashion, styling and business and end up somewhere fabulous in life that brought me all the things I could ever want. It's a whole year later and I've finally worked up the courage to put this out there - in the big wide world publicly for everyone to read. AND boy have I come a long way from the words below.

So now I welcome you to my space, which is just a little sharing of my life, loves, thoughts, dreams, aspirations and all the eclectic shit that runs through my head.

ALL dreams are powerful and mine mostly completely eclectic - they will generally fall into something amazing but, with an ending that will teach and become wisdom. I hope you can enjoy and take away something small from me and this space even if it's just a thought, just a thought that turns into a dream. A powerful dream.

Diary Entry 1st June 2012 

"All those times when you feel you know what you should write about and then when it comes down to having a blank page in front of your eyes its like the Atlantic ocean before you….Your in a dinghy and have a broken paddle, not even sure how to swim. Chances are you'll probably drown. Drown in a ocean of shit and ramblings that no one will read let alone give credit to…

This is my first Blog post and mummah am I scared I might form sentences that have been forming in my mind on the train to work or sitting on the toilet AGB style (yes aftergrogbog). These sentences are now lost. Lost in this hopeless memory that can't retain the times table (thank you recreational drug use). But alas!! All those at the time brilliant ideas for articles and stories to tell the grandkids are replaced with something, somewhat ummmm lets say Just ok…. Tonight its Monday, terrible-terrible Monday. Coming down from the weekend of festivities and battling through a 12 hour work day I apologise for the downer mood:)

Are smiley faces allowed? Or should we keep them to the world of FB chat, MSN, texts, Tweets….I'm not even sure if its entirely appropriate as I've just told  you all how much of s shit mood I'm in and here I am smiley facing at you.

HA"

Don't be afraid of being afraid - the only critic in life is you. The quote above is all too true - It's OK to be scared xx

Love Dee xx